I love to paint
I love to write
I love to create.
What feels tricky at times is the feeling that nothing can be left “undone”. That full immersion on one thing while letting other things lie dormant is just wrong.
I do this ALL of the time.
Case in point.
I’m digging in and working on all the fun stuff for the online workshop that will be coming out in January…(the new one in France— I actually wake up thinking about and go to sleep with it on my mind–in the most wonderful of ways).
And then I remember I haven’t painted in weeks. (What must you think of me? Flagrant flake that I am..)
And I’m doing this post at the last minute and feel guilty. (I should have started days ago…the pros don’t do this last minute stuff!)
And THEN I have to have a talk with myself and remind me that I did paint in July (30 paintings to be exact one of which I am sharing here 😉
And that I didn’t write or paint much in the months before that but I was traveling and filming in those months).
I’m saying it here because I know how we are.
We do this crazy thinking.
We do so much (and many times it is not art related which HELLO we are human and people around us need us to actually LOOK at them from time to time 😉 ) that we are unkind to ourselves in our thinking.
We compare ourselves to others (and for the LOVE OF PETE, how do we know what anyone else is REALLY doing? My “fantasy” other person never sleeps, is organized and always together, has her posts done months in advance and lives a very ORDERLY life. Her litter box is never full and her nails never look like Howard Hughes’ in his last days. She’s polished and does things effortlessly. She paints everyday, reads deep books for hours on end and manages to have a gourmet dinner prepared for her guy with a special wine she stopped and got on her way back from her WORKOUT…!!!)
Then I look at me. Me who has spent the last 24 hours moving files from my storage depleted computer (500 GB give or take a few) to a hard drive and then copying off of that hard drive to make sure it was backed up only to discover that now her TRASH WILL NOT EMPTY on said computer so she is still low on space which will necessitate a call to the Apple people later. Sometimes one feels certain they are slogging through a peanut butter marshland on their way to getting ANYTHING done for the day. Yes, I know. It is a glamorous life we lead 😉
I am still learning it’s okay to focus and totally immerse yourself in one thing. Multi-tasking is way over rated and that is TRUTH. We (I) rob ourselves of the JOY of being fully awake, aware and present in exactly what it is that we are doing at the moment.
These moments are how life happens.
It’s all we got.
Doing one thing while thinking we should be doing another is probably some form of insanity.
When Eddie is grooming I never get the feeling that he’s thinking he should be chasing a bug.
I have a sneaking suspicion that Walt Disney, if here today and visioning “the happiest place on earth”, would not be mentally chastising himself for not having gotten more mouse outfits made today or a blog post out.
Just thinking out loud here.
We humans are funny little creatures. Always mentally rushing to the next thing without fulling squeezing the juice out of where we stand. Certain that while we are squeezing that juice that we should also be writing a best selling novel and finishing a mural.
What do you really desire to immerse yourself in? In this moment? Why are you not allowing yourself to do so?
The bigger unanswered question here is this.
What might happen if you did allow yourself to FOCUS ON ONE THING?
P.S. What else were you doing while reading this post? I KNEW IT!!! I am not alone 😉 Take it easy today and do one thing at a time. Nice and easy. Remember you are loved!
P.S.S. We are just a few days away from Dream.Love.Paint Online Course of Painting and Inspiration opening up once again to a beautiful group of artists–you can learn more, just click here!
You can paint with me online 🙂
September 6, 2016 this online workshop opens for enrollment!
Click here to get the details!!