18 Jun

During the Creative Process

Two Questions

1. If no one ever saw anything you created, would you still create?
2. Are you letting your heart have what it really, really wants?
Believe it or not, the answers for these two questions are very connected.
The first question was posed to me many years ago and at the time it was very disquieting to me. The exact question was, ‘If no one ever saw any painting you ever did…would you still paint?’ and although that person was confident of their own answer, I was silent on the matter.
I didn’t know.
What I did know at the time was that I wasn’t separating out the creating part from the response of the mighty “they” in my life. In other words—it was one big ball of making a painting, entering it into a competition, hanging it in a show, being sensitive to what someone else’s reaction to it was. The actual doing of it (and how I felt when I was doing it) was buried underneath all the things that came afterwards. I was so vulnerable about the outcome of what I was creating that I allowed it to back flow into the process itself and impose its sense of carefulness. Careful not to take a chance. Careful not to risk too much. Careful not to listen too close to my own voice.

Carefulness has no place in the imagination OR in creating.

What was lost to me during those years was the uninhibited, go for broke, seize the moment, paint the day away for tomorrow we may die kind of thinking that opens the creative door wide.
How would it change what any of us are doing if we behaved as though whatever thing we created today would be swept away tomorrow before another soul laid eyes on it?
Would we perhaps bring more undiluted JOY to our work, a sense of freedom, a non-judgement frame of mind to whatever it is that we are called to do? Can our true work come forth if it’s done for the purpose of how others will perceive it?
Food for thought.

Which brings me to the second question of letting your heart have what it really, really wants.

If we change how we handle the first question by saying YES, it opens an immense door of possibility.
Yes, if no one ever saw anything I created, I would still create.
If it really didn’t matter, if the real JOY comes in the actual creating—not in its wake—then why oh why would we withhold our heart’s desires??
We wouldn’t of course. We would let our heart have at it! We would trust that it knew best. We would not be racing ahead in our mind to what someone else would think about our choices. If we decided that we wanted to start working in crayola crayons and doing it on brown paper bags we would not be sweating over how archival is it, will people buy something done on a grocery bag, or what will the all important powers that be have to say about us.
And that, as you might have guessed, is ONE very important place to arrive.
The place of letting your creative heart run wild.
Crazy with inspiration, grandeur, and possibility. Because no one (in theory) would ever see it, we are free to be us in our art!

“I feel assured I should write from the mere fondness and yearning I have for the 
even if my night’s labours should be burnt every morning

and no eye ever shine on them.”

John Keats in a letter to R. Woodhouse Oct. 17, 1818

It’s good to do a self check on occasion.
Checking in to see why we are doing what we are doing.
Asking ourselves if what we are creating today were to disappear by dawn’s early light, would we do it the same or would we do it differently. Are we holding back or are we leaning into the fire?
I’m not saying I am there. My paintings? Yes. They feel more like me than they ever have. I have JOY every time I paint. That is Truth.
My writing? Still scares me sometimes.
The what if’s and what will they thinks tend to sit next to me, trying to make eye contact that would intimidate me from even the words I would write to you now.

If I live my life carefully, weighing my creativity against an unknown future critic, I forgo living a fully expressed life.

Seeing it here in writing makes it seem pretty simple.
Create like there is no tomorrow.
Live to your heart’s highest expectations.
Give your heart what it really, really wants.

Watercolor Journal Excerpt - Colorful Paintings and Inspired Writings by Artist Dreama Tolle Perry

Natchitoches, LA – Dreama’s Watercolor Journal Excerpt

Note: The above piece (catch those  twinkling watercolors glittering in the sunlight– they always make me feel like a kid!) was done on the banks of the Cane River in a little town called Natchitoches.  The movie Steel Magnolias was filmed there.
This post was originally published on 04/04/2014.
I am immersed in a BIG project that needs my full attention and thought it was a good time to rerun some of the most read posts on this blog.
Keep sending those good thoughts and love my way—they are helping me so much to infuse my best on what I am working on!!!

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  1. Nadia Louderback Fine Art

    I am sharing this article and saving it to read over and over. Aside from your beautiful art you have a gift for inspiring and communicating. Thank you Dreama and good luck with your new venture. Can’t wait to hear about it 🙂

  2. Joyce Corns

    Just yesterday I decided to do a painting for me. It was from a photo of a beautiful spot on a trip I made to England. Since it would not be sold I did it to simply please myself and the love for myself in it shows. Yes, I would create even if no one ever saw it. This is definitely a keeper to re-read when I find myself painting to please others. Thank you for this reminder Dreama.

  3. LOVE this post, it’s a “keeper” for sure to refer back to when I lose my way. Thank you so much, I realize it’s an “old” one, but new to me and the timing is perfect!

  4. Silver Hamlin Geras

    I would keep creating, my mind works constantly and I have to release it some how. I do what my heart wants and enjoys. An ex-friend once said to me, wow I didn’t think you would stick with that for long…I looked at her and said I am an artist and creative person I follow my heart. She looked at me not doing something anymore as a failure, quitter, I looked at it as NEXT what can I do now, I love working with my hands and pray I can till I am no more.

  5. Don Melissa Jander

    Thank you, Dreama, I needed to hear this today. Thank you for for following your heart’s desire!

  6. Lisa Yoder Strong

    Perfectly stated! Well done.

  7. Ruth Roberts

    Dreama, I am a jewelry artist at a little gallery just on the outskirts of Kansas City, MO. This question is one I have been deliberating over for the last week. I was told a week ago on Thursday I have only 4 – 5 months to live. What should I do with this time? I won’t be putting anything else in the gallery. But do I still want to make jewelry? To what end? Who for? Your post today clearly answered my question. I’m going to do it, because it brings me joy. I’m going to go to the big local nursery just to smell the fragrance of the flowers. I’m going to do all the things that fill my heart with bliss.
    I love your work, Dreama. Many times the color palette that you used became the inspiration for a piece of my work. Keep painting and writing and reposting. Your post today, changed my life.

  8. Susan Bennett Galassi

    Thank you Dreama for writing this. I too often think about painting to satisfy others. I am that person who needs to let that go and paint for ME! That alone will help me to paint what I enjoy and finally be fulfilled. You are wise and beautiful in thought and I thank you for sharing that with us all.

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