After the Creative Process
I like the paintings that I get to do. They most often make me smile when I look at them, a little bit of wonder that somehow me, some color, a brush and a board came together in life and that was what resulted.
My paintings have “mistakes” in them. Some I notice within moments, other days, and others months later. Perfect they are not and yet they are. They repeat life in all its beauty and non-perfection that is in reality, perfectly imperfect.
Painting comes naturally to me. Not a struggle but a pleasure in being part of what happens. Often times when I look at a finished piece, I see it as a third party would—a wonder at the strokes and color. I too get to enjoy it as though I had no part in the actual making of it– I can delight in it.
Writing feels that way for me too. Waiting with others to see what will appear on the page. Often delighted, sometimes surprised! Who wrote that?? Who painted that??
I’m not sure that it takes courage to allow divine creativity to flow through us. I do know that it takes courage to talk about it and to own it. Maybe someone will think I have a big ego, take it as bragging on myself, thinking that I think I am all that and a bag of chips 🙂
What feels less courageous is letting someone assume I did it by myself because, ultimately, we each have to pause in those moments that we see/feel/hear inspiration in our work and consider….where DID that come from?? We know ourselves pretty well and we KNOW that oftentimes what someone else may perceive as a flash of brilliance in our work, well, we are as mystified where that came from as they are impressed by it. We just had the courage to “show up” and the rest seemed to take on a life of its own.
The reason I am writing this (and yes, if you must know, this is one of those pieces that seems to have written itself) is so that you take courage in your divine work. And your work is divine. There is a simple beauty in being able to do the work and enjoy the work. There is no shame in that. When you see inspiration in your work don’t be afraid to own it. You are partnered with the same Intelligence that scattered the planets into space and sprinkled a few billion stars between them.
You are creative.